Another Lame Day in Amarillo Gay

I really just wanted to make that rhyme. =]

So today, I slept till 1. I really hate sleeping late, but I haven't been able to get up early since I got back from Oklahoma City with Kelcey and them.

My mom made me come work at the office, and I really didnt do much. Instead she had me go to Office Depot and buy a million things. And Chris wasn't working. *sigh*

But looking through office depot, I saw a bunch of "Dorm room" classified stuff and it got me actually really excited for college. I really want to unpack my stuff into my dorm, and decorate it and make it me, ya know?

I'm excited to meet new people, and make new friends.
And I can't express how happy I am that Brison will be with me. That makes me happier than anything beyond words.

But I'm still not ready to leave. You'll be in Austin. Stickley will be in Sherman. Brian, luckily will be in Dallas. Chris and Kelcey will still be here. Emily will be here. And Camron. God, Camron. What am I going to do without him?

You're not going to believe me, but I'm sitting here crying while I'm writing about Camron right now.

I don't think I'm happier, or in a better mood, than when I'm with him. And I'm so freaking jealous that you get him again in 2 years. He's playing Tenors this year, did you know that?

I don't get to see that, or be a part of it. And that kills me. I don't have bus rides with him, I don't have early morning "race you to the fields" with him. I don't have "do you think we can get Mr. Dunn to let us not march?" I don't. Have. Him. And i hate it.

And I know you do too, and I know you're probably crying by this point too...I just can't handle it.
I'm ready for new things...but I'm not ready to let go of the past.

In five years, and I'm going to remember that "In any given hour, there are 61,000 airborne over the United States." 
And even if I do, will I remember Camron told it to me?


I really didn't mean to turn this into a suck fest of missing Camron, but...it's on my mind right now.


Was Kevin Mchale on my Future Husband list? If not he should be.